Memory Motel

The second week of this month, I had to go to Detroit to see a sick relative. I hadn't been back to Detroit in over 17 years. I had never been as "me" (I transitioned almost 11 years ago). As a child, my memories about things not being right with me go back to about age 5. It's really important to me to revisit some of the places of my childhood where I had these intense feelings and go back now as things are right and sort of seal and close a chapter of such feelings. Couple that with my close relatives medical problems, as well as "meeting her as me" for the first time (and meeting an uncle too), it was a very heavy trip.

Arriving early on a Sunday, I visited he street I was born on, only to not be able to find the house amongst the empty fields from raized houses. I actually got scared on the street and took off before I could snap a photo. In contrast, I later lived in Grosse Pointe which is one of the preppy capitals of the world. Strangely, I felt very comfortable there, even though preppy is not a word I'd use to describe myself. One makes friends when wearing a chino skirt - as long as it's a mini :)

On a bittersweet note, I found my dream car in the right model, color, wheels and extras (Harman Kardon stereo!) at the right price. I cream when I think of this baby. I've literally cum when thinking about driving it. I think other's in SUV's or trucks and buses might appreciate my convertible too :)

The severe downside is that I'm having to try to quickly sell all of my pro photo equipment and camera to get $3500 I need for part of the downpayment. This is where I'm at right now and it really sucks. Photography is a longtime passion and my primary creative outlet. I also shoot professionally sometimes and really love it. I'm already freaking out about this but I don't have an alternative. The worst case scenario would be that I sell my gear at that price (almost 40% off of what they're worth used) and the car is sold out from under me. No car, no camera and sold at a great loss. Not good. Hopefully, I'll be my car and not hating myself for this.

Earlier this month, I did a photo shoot with John Tennler on Treasure Island. It was great to work with him and despite the cool SF July weather and strong island winds, we had a great shoot. There's a full gallery on my massage website. I'm excited to work with him again and our next shoot will be more racy :)

More soon to follow.