"Not Skinny" Arms

For a long time, I really wanted to be thin and waif like. However, that's just not me. That's not my body type. I remember becoming concerned when I started do massage therapy that I'd be building up more. I decided not to buy another motorcycle because I didn't want the extra shoulder girth from riding.

One evening in Diva's, I meet a young Brazilian bodybuilder who was flipping out over my arms. He was really turned on that I had some muscle and definition. It freaked me out as that was not something I wanted to hear. Somehow I got over over it.

(By the way, this frame grab is the only photo on here not taken by me or of me) Fast forward to about a year ago. A friend who's pretty kinky and is into latex clothing gave me a couple of dvds to watch. "The Ivy Manor" was the first one I watched. When this scene came on, I finally "saw" a little into what the Brazilian guy was picking up on. I thought this latex nurse was so cool as she's clearly very feminine, yet she has some decent muscle on her arms. That tweaked my perception of how I see or define femininity.

Going a step further, I think transsexuals (or transsexuality in general) can challenge people to redefine what they consider or define to be erotic. At it's best, it can make one question what is gender and what is sex. Personally, I don't define gender by such a hardline rule as body parts. For one, they're too easily reconfigured and secondly, I think we're in a lot of trouble if we must first see someone naked to make a call as to whether that person is a man or woman. I know my opinion is probably not a popular one. I have a little more experience in this matter than many people ;)

Back to defining eroticism: one sees for what all purposes is a beautiful woman, but then between her legs, there's something in congruent. If someone gets turned on by that, it can make someone question just "what they are". Does this make them gay? They may be into genetic woman, yet this is hot - what does that say about themselves? What does it say about attraction.

Interestingly, I often see genetic woman porn mixed in with TS porn (on XXX forums, Flickr photostreams, etc... ). That in itself says something about the orientation of the viewrs, not that it makes a difference or is any of my business. I believe much of mainstream America believes an interest in TS woman means a guy must be gay, but this and other things lead me to contradict that.

This isn't one of my most eloquent moments. Fortunately, I can come back and edit this when the words are flowing. I found the disc and felt the need to write and address a few of these ideas. I'm curious as to what others think about this.